

every now and then i remember things that i did as a child and i’m like “why didn’t i know i was gay sooner” because my god i was like a raging homo at age 9
i don’t actually know what to do anymore. i feel like everything i do is just for the short term like i focus on what to do today or maybe tomorrow but there’s no long time goal. I’m going along with life, waiting for something to happen. i don’t know what i want anymore. i don’t have dreams to aim for. everything requires money which i don’t have.
i feel forgotten about like no one really cares, like my friends have their own lives and if they have time to see me then i don’t make a big impact on their lives it doesn’t matter to them if they see me or not.
i need to sort my life out, make new friends, build a future but i have no idea where to start